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April 24, 2014

Letters/Notes: from Awinda Otieno-Pala [Younger Self]


Dear Beautiful One,
 The truth is, you were born to stand out. Yet somehow, sometime, & somewhere you have convinced yourself that you can "chameleonize" yourself-change your outward image to blend in with your environment; and yet despite your skillful (and somewhat successful) efforts, you have yet to figure out how and why you're so easily spotted in the hardest of places! A zebra cannot hide within its own stripes because the zebra was made for those stripes inasmuch as they were made for the zebra. In the same way, the sun cannot hide within its own light-the result would be catastrophic. It's time to own your stripes. Only you can wear them. Stop holding back your light-there are others who depend on it to glow-be their sun, and let them reflect your light. 
 You spend your time searching the heavens for those things that the naked eye cannot see. Your vision is a gift I pray you are allowed to develop early. 
The world will see you and despise you for what it sees you do.You, however, need to learn to challenge what the world sees -the so called world view-and never agree with their "NO", because you were born for assignment. You can never take on their view, you can seek to understand it, but you can never agree with it. The moment  you accept their view is the moment you accept blindness-do not forfeit your vision. This message may seem too difficult for some to understand, but only you know what you have seen, and as much as you want to, you cannot ignore the yearnings of your heart.

You will have to learn that fear is your nemesis. To be afraid is to be silent-it does not help your purpose. Something within you requires you to speak hope into the lives of others-do not let your voice be stifled.

Learn to love your family and your siblings. The things that define them will also distinguish you. 

It will take a while for you to realize your true worth, but when you do, no one will able to cheapen your value any longer. 

You have faced a hard life. When you share your story with others, they always ask you HOW you made it, but you question WHY you’re still living. Be patient, your purpose will unfold in due season. The things you have experienced only you can carry. Your strength goes beyond the physical, because your spirit is so ALIVE in you, that nothing-NOT DEPRESSION-nothing-NOT LACK-nothing-NOT even LONELINESS can kill you. 

You have made sleep your best friend-because you think sleep can keep you from facing the fears of the day, or the troubles that come with it. But time is eternal, my friend, and so are troubles. Learn to choose wisely how to handle your day, and you will go far in your life.

Do not dismay when others realize their dreams while you are in waiting-you’re time is coming. 

There are three things you must never forget
Always be thankful-even for the little things. Don’t take for granted the air you breathe, the food you eat, or the ground you walk on. 
Always give - your gift will make room for you
Stay Humble- never get too full of yourself that you forget to show kindness to those who have helped you along the way. You are only entitled to the rewards of your choices - Mercy belongs to the Holy One, and kindness is scarce in this world nowadays, so act accordingly. 

Never settle-keep striving-keep pushing-keep moving. Keep your eyes forward. You may rest a while but pick yourself back up. Keep yours eyes focused on your destination and you will surely arrive.

Sincerely,
Your Loving Sister

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